a few things about myself

i'm not the kind of girl who cares about everyone's problems, or who goes out of my way to help someone who's down.
i won't hold your hand when you are having a bad day.
i won't plaster your face all over my myspace or facebook in an attempt to express my "undieing love" for you.
i'm not the kind of person who runs around looking on the up side of things.
i like to make myself observe and disect every mistake i have ever made.
and i like criticizing others just as relentlessly.
i like to plan the future when i feel motivated enough.
chances are if you go to my school or live in my county, i think i'm better than you.
i find it hard to get along with anyone who can't keep up with arguments.
if i like you, i express it through small jestures that probably mean nothing to you.
if i dislike you, it is equally as small in jestures.
i chronically stalk peoples' lives and force myself to realize how they are happier than me.
if you think i don't notice you, chances are i have one or more bad things to say about you.
i don't date people i like because i always find a reason not to.
and if i think something is hopeless, i give up.
i'm cynical, self-centered, and analytical; but that doesn't make me any less likable.

i know it seems like i am just ragging on myself because i'm in a bad mood or some shit. but it's actually not the case this time. i really am just like that. bahaha when i write all these things down, it seems like i'm a bad person. but i'm not. maybe i'm just strange compared to other girls my age. and when i say strange i DO NOT mean unique. unique is often associated with originality, which by being strange i am still classified in a group/section of people.
anyway, i'm over worked and tired as shit.